I just finished my Thursday night group and we spent part of the evening reading our own Akashic Records. It was quite interesting to watch the experience many people had when they opened their records. My personal feelings about opening the records is to gain insight as to what is significant and applicable for us in this lifetime and how do we then heal any karmic wounds. It can be a powerful tool to help people shift their current situation.
What came out at the end of the session for one person was the question “How could I be both good and bad, blessed and a sinner at the same time?” We all have a light body and a shadow side. To say our shadow side doesn’t exist is ridiculous. Even as we become more enlightened in this lifetime, we still have a shadow side. It is the side of us that we don’t always like to admit to, but is still a part of you. Even if it was something like stealing candy from a store when you were 8 years old, that part of you still exists even if you become a minister later in life. If you saw the movie Black Swan, it demonstrated directly how those thoughts of ourselves can bring about our shadow side into reality. That feeling of “not being good enough” can be the underlying shadow that lays deep in your soul. It could come from a past life as a lesson to learn in this lifetime or it could have been created in this lifetime as a lesson to be learned in a future lifetime. Either way, it exists in all of us.
The key to all this is to be aware that the shadow exists. It is part of the reason that habits are so hard to change. If you were an alchoholic who recently stopped drinking, you might avoid the bar scene or social settings where alcohol is being served so you won’t be tempted. You are aware that this shadow exists and is still part of you. You may still have the temptation, but in the present moment, your awareness is what stops you from putting yourself in situations of being strongly tempted. The same goes for dietary restrictions, financial situation, and relationships you know you shouldn’t have.
When we understand the reason for the addiction or habit, perhaps through the Akashic Records, we can be more aware of our situation, identifying our shadow side exists, but choosing a different behavior. We have free will to choose our responses to life.
Our life is filled with opposites. Good and Evil. Happy and Sad. The Righteous one and the Liar. They all exist within you. I have had the following parable hanging in my house for the last few years. I love this parable and want to share it with you.
Two Wolves
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, “My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. One is evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego. The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.” The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf wins?” The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”